so this is how it feels

contrary to what most think, i am not always on a diet. i rarely go on a diet. in fact, i don't really figure in one.

i eat small amounts of real food, i eat skyflakes for lunch when i don't have an appetite, i can even go one day with no food intake. if i do these things, it doesn't mean i'm dieting. because how can i when i pig out on junk foods and sweets everyday? that is just how i am.

but this time, i am gonna do it. not really diet but eat healthy foods instead. i mean, i don't think eating between breakfast and lunch everyday is good, include my mocha frappe takeouts in the afternoon too. anyway, anything excessive is not good.
besides, i feel like i'm turning into a blimp.

i used to hear and read jokes about people who keep on putting off their diet (dialogues such as "promise, tomorrow, i'll start na" are quite normal, i think). i didn't think i'd actually say the same thing. since saturday, i've been putting off my resolution. during last night's dinner, i took the liberty of ordering pizza for us. although i only got to eat a slice there, i was surprised when i got home and saw the box of pizza dad bought for me [my dad has this uncanny ability of knowing what i'm craving for]. the thing is, i didn't tell him i'm having dinner outside and i didn't want him to feel bad, i then had to eat what's left inside of that box and stuff myself full.

kaya, promise, today, totoo na...