Lifehouse Prayers

These are not just songs. They're prayers. My prayers.

Everything

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

~ o ~ o ~ o ~ o ~ o
Take Me Away

this time what I want is you
there is no one else
who can take your place
this time you burn me with your eyes
you see past all the lies
you take it all away
I've seen it all
and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away

I try to make my way to you
but still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do
I've seen it all
and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away

don't give up on me yet
don't forget who I am
I know I'm not there yet
but don't let
me stay here alone

this time what I want is you
there is no one else
who can take your place
I've seen enough and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away

take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away

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It makes me both happy and sad that no matter how many times I hurt Him, He's just there to welcome me with open arms.
I may fall into a pit of emotional burden. But I will always, always be rescued by the assurance that there is this God who will never never leave me.

reminder

For the nth time, I am reposting this. Not for anybody but for me to server as a reminder. So that whenever I backread, I get to stumble on this and knock some sense to me.


journal entry last August 26, 2001 (12:46pm)

I find myself lost once again. I've let my world be the materialistic world that we are living in, drawn in the happiness that is temporal, brought by the accumulation of material things. I've forgotten once again of Him. I may remember and give a short prayer only when I'm about to embark on something I'm not too sure where it would lead me. After I have safely landed to that place or after I've successfully done what I'm supposed to do, I completely forget Him as well as to say a thank you prayer, assuming that it was I who made that "thing" be possible. I've become engulfed with the problems of other people, giving them more time than Him. I'd think about my problems, the loneliness and emptiness I feel, the wish that I have (which I think will never be granted) hoping that there will be someone to listen to me and understand me. But I keep forgetting the fact that I can always always turn to Him.

Maybe it is time. It's time that I find my way back to Him. Even if it's step by step, slowly but surely. Maybe I've become complacent of the fact that He has always been there for me that I've always taken Him for granted. Maybe I have to reassess my relationship with Him and how am I doing as His child. Maybe I should be more focused on the idea that He would be coming soon and that I would want to be ready to face Him on that day.

I know I might once again get lost while I find my way back to Him but I know He won't leave me. He won't let me go astray totally just like what He did to the lost sheep. I know He loves me and I know He will always. I know He understands me and feels for me. I know He is sad and crying just seeing me like this. I know He is happy at the same time because I realized I am drifting away from Him and I want to do something about it. I know it won't be long when I'll meet Him face to face and live with Him for eternity. I know He knows I am thankful for all the blessings He has continuously showered me. I know He knows I love Him.

With that, I am ready to walk with Him again.

getting tired

emotionally.

things are slowly eating me up. i'm not sure for how long i can wear this mask. sigh.

i really have to get a grip on myself.

Revisiting An Old Blog

I've been backreading and stumbled on these posts. Some things never change:

Aug. 5, 2003
Umuulan na naman. Parang alam ng mga ulap na nalulungkot ako... na gusto kong umiyak.

Ayoko 'pag umuulan. Siguro, ayoko yung pakiramdam na parang nakikiramay ang ulap sa akin.

~ o ~ o ~ o ~ o

Untitled I
There are things we believed
when we were young and naive
things we thought were real

years pass...

we realized they were
nothing but make believe
they are the things
that made us what we are today...
skeptical...
jaded...


Aug. 6, 2003
scared

I know i want to move on, break away from the past and to let go of things that are holding me back from doing so.

But I'm afraid that if I do, i might stop remembering and eventually forget.

And I don't wanna forget especially now that memories are all i have.


Aug. 7, 2003
Minsan iniisip ko, bakit ba ko nagsusulat?

Sa dami ng journals na sinusulatan ko, para namang ang dami kong pwedeng isulat. Pakiramdam ko tuloy, trying hard ako. Nagpipilit maging manunulat. Hindi naman.

Minsan makakabasa ka ng mga sulat ng iba, ang gaganda, ang gagaling. Nakaka-insecure tuloy.

E ba't nga ba ko nagsusulat? Hindi naman dahil may gusto akong patunayan sa mundo. Kundi dahil baka mawalan na talaga ako ng bait kung hindi. Kumbaga, it's one thing that keeps me sane. Nagsusulat ako kasi pakiramdam ko mas maiintindihan ako ng tao, mas maiintindihan ko sarili ko.

Ewan. San ba patungo itong sinusulat ko?

"People like talking about people. Makes us feel superior. Makes us feel in control. And sometimes, for some people, knowing some things makes them care." - House (House Season 1)

"Well, we're all wounded. We carry our wounds around with us through life and eventually they kill us. Things happen that leave a mark in space, in time. In us." - Brenda (Six Feet Under Season 1)

random musings

i think it was friday night when i spent hours just looking up at the stars. it's been ages since i last did this. reminded me though of how i'd use to look for the first star i see so that i could make a wish. last night, i was hoping i could catch one, but it rained so there. :(

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i got to spend time with the girls last saturday which made me both happy and sad. happy because spending time with them always equates to laughter and chikahan. then days after, i realized things aren't as before and it looks like it'll again change. when ja got married and had kids, we understood well enough that she wouldn't be able to go out with us as much as she used to. now, angge has plans of trying it out in singapore. leaves us to only 3. sigh.

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i wonder if we can only write our own love story and make them happpen, would it be better? or easier? i think i subconsciously has written my own and i'm probably dreaming that i can make it happen.