I swear, i'm gonna have to learn how to commute going home to Novaliches as soon as possible.

x's: shmuck, in case you get to read this. Sorry talaga. I really wanted to go. It could have been a nice opportunity to catch up and all. Promise, next time, we'll meet.

It's a holiday and I'm working. Swell. :-S

x's: girls.. there's a comedy play in UP this saturday. who wants to come watch with me? (why am i even asking? i know there's this Anito launch party you're still attending in the evening. guess i'm just hoping you'd say yes.. :D )

Sino ba namang makapagsasabi na sa simpleng ginawa mo kagabi ay syang magiging dahilan para umiyak ka? Pero siguro nga tama yung sabi nilang curiosity killed the cat.

Sino rin bang makapagsasabi na hindi lang basta-bastang email ang matatanggap mo ngayon kundi isang email na ikasasama lang ng loob mo?

Wala naman kasing makapagsasabi kung pano umaandar ang utak ng isang lalaki. Wala ring makapagsasabi kung bakit may mga lalaking gago lang talaga. Hindi mo rin naman kasi inakala na mahuhulog ka ng lubos sa ganong klase ng lalaki. Kasi kung merong nakakaalam non, malamang, hindi ka nasasaktan ngayon.

Wala na kaming magagawa para matanggal yang sakit na nararamdaman mo. Ikaw na lang ang makapagsasabi kung kailan mo kayang sabihin sa amin na, "yes, I am over him" ng walang halong kaplastikan. Pansamantala, e dito lang kami, dadamayan ka habang isinusumpa mo ang lalaking yan.

alarming

the word that best describes the news lately.

Bought bags, clothes, and a pair of shoes last Saturday.

Yey! Christmas shopping's the best! (especially if you're buying for yourself haha).

Spent half of the day inside my sister's college library studying nihonggo and waiting for her to finish with her class. JLPT's just around the corner (and i doubt that i'll pass the exam) plus another deadline is set on Friday. Busy busy week.

i wonder how was mandy moore's concert last night... caught a glimpse of what she wore. and... i wished i didn't see that instead.

she was like wearing a casual attire and i don't think she bothered to change clothes. it was as if she didn't put any effort in looking good for her concert! tsk...

but then...

i still like her!

emode tests

i've been taking one each day. just took the "what's your comfort zone" quiz:

you're in your comfort zone when you're the Close Compadre!

You really know how to connect with friends when you're one-on-one. Flitting from place to place isn't your style. Why waste time when you could be spending it with a good pal, or two, or three? Quaint caf�s, old-school restaurants, the perfect bar stools at the corner bar � they're all great places for good food, fun, and conversation. Sure, there are times to fight the crowds at a sweltering party. But you'd probably rather spend time talking about the deeper issues in life and developing the kind of connections with friends that last a lifetime. After all, isn't that what friends like you are for?

new versions

'di ko trip yung bagong version ng Cold Summer Nights, ng Maybe at ng True. yan pa namang tatlo kasama sa mga all-time faves ko.

grrr.... stop with the revivals!!! please...

feeling better

was able to meet up with kulit and carrots last friday (after weeks of not seeing them). one thing i realized afterwards: hanging out with them de-stresses me. i didn't have to tell them about it. they didn't ask me about it either. we just sat there, talked about other things. enough for me to feel comforted and thankful.

to those who dropped a line or two in my comments box, to those who asked through ym, and to those who called to check up on me, thanks! so much... like i said in response to kulit's comment, i guess sometimes i can be really stubborn... stubborn to the extent that i withdraw myself from friends who are just as willing to listen...

nagsinungaling na naman ako.

sa mga araw na hindi ako nag post, partly true lang na i didn't have much to say.

ang totoo. i was fighting with the inner demon in me. yung demon na nagsasabing my project mates are far better than me. yung demon na nagsasabing dapat akong maging insecure. and for a while i felt like i was losing to that demon. i was really feeling low the last few weeks (which also prompted me to cut my hair). yes, i was bothered, big time.

pero all it would take lang pala is to share what's troubling me to someone. truth is, wala sana kong sasabihan na kahit sino. kahit sa kapatid ko hindi ko sinabi sa kanya na pakiramdam ko ako ang pinakabobo sa team namin. reason 1, ayokong ipakita sa kanila na minsan na-iinsecure ako. hindi naman kasi ako ganon talaga. reason 2, umandar na naman yung feeling ko na i don't want to impose myself sa ibang tao, lalo na yung mga taong they have problems of their own to deal with. pero mahirap pala talaga yun. kelangan mo talagang magsabi kahit papaano. kahit hindi lahat, kahit hindi ganoon ka-detalyado, basta mailabas lang.

at ang importante pala sa lahat, prayer never fails. sobra.

hindi naman sa all's well with me na. but i'm coping... for now, ok na yun.

i wanted to surprise kulit and carrots with it, that i tried to keep my mouth shut.

i wanted to tell them that i already did what i wanted to do months ago, see their reaction and listen to what they'll say.

whaddaheck.

it's not like it's a big deal really. i just had my almost elbow-length hair cut (emphasis on cut). yup, no more long tresses for me.

Project status to date: alpha released!

Yey!!! I can go home on time!

but but.. there are those bugs to fix.. blech!

For two weeks now, I've been swamped with work. I think I'm counting for my third week this time.

I hate being tied up like this. I mean, Lord knows, how I love it when I have more than one thing to work on and be busy about. I love it when I feel like I don't have enough time to budget all the things I'm supposed to do. You can stack me tons and tons of work and assignments, I won't complain. But when I feel like I do not know what is going on around the house anymore (like what's been happening lately), that's when I wish I wasn't that busy.

I barely have the time to talk to my mom and my dad. When I get home at night, they're usually already in bed or I am too tired to stay up and have conversations with them. As for my sister, well... She's the one who waits for me to get home, and I do get to chat with her while I have my late late dinner.

I wish this project to be finished soon!

Reasons why I haven't been posting:

Got nothing to say.

I got pissed with my blog not working properly on Internet Explorer. (thanks to jm, he got it all figured out.)

And then of course, there's the fact that I am way preoccupied right now.