carrots was asking me yesterday if it is okay to like a married guy.
i answered yes. you can always admire a married guy.
when she asked, what if it's like like.
that. obviously is not right.
I don't wanna be peeved.
Not on this occasion. For goodness' sake, it's supposed to be the season to be jolly .
Oh Lord, grant me patience.
We have a new set up.
Me and my dad stays here in our old place in Manila, while my mom and my sister are staying at our new place in Novaliches. It's not because my mom and dad are about to be separated (a very impossible scenario). It's just that me and my dad would have a difficult time going to work everyday if we are to stay there. And so, we go there during weekends instead.
I can't say I like the idea.
Last Sunday night, I didn't try to hug my mom and sister when I said goodbye. Just kissed them both and went straight on our way, didn't bother to look at them again and left my dad say bye to them as well. With my back on them, they wouldn't have the chance to see me crying. They wouldn't know how much I'm gonna miss seeing them here. And then, I felt my dad come up behind me. Didn't look at him either. And then I heard him sniff. Oh my gosh, my father was crying. The idea of my dad crying made me cry even more. But I didn't ask him about it, didn't ask if he's ok. I knew what his answers would be.
I know he'll miss mom sleeping beside him, he'll miss her incessant reminders about his meds, he'll miss talking to her about anything. And then, he'll say he'll miss my sister - he'll miss asking her about school, waking her up in the morning, seeing her off to school. 'Cause that's just about what I'll be missing as well and more.
I know we sound like we're so mababaw. As if we're really really miles apart. Then again, our behavior probably wouldn't come as a surprise anymore, especially from me, na nakukuha pang ma-miss yung kapatid ko kahit araw-araw kong nakikita dati. This is why I know I wouldn't last long if I had to leave home. I just can't. (i know sooner or later, i have to do that pero chaka na yun... i don't want to think about it yet).
So far, it's been 2 days since I haven't seen them both. I know my dad's nalulungkot (and I'm sure my mom and sister are as well). I'm the only one acting like it's ok (me and my mask once again) because i think it's what I should do.
How I pray this is but temporary.
Nevermind if it was a weekday night and that I have to be in the office by 8 in the morning today.
Nevermind if we had to wait for an hour outside Onstage at Greenbelt1 before we were ushered in.
Nevermind if I didn't get to watch the I-Witness feature.
Nevermind those.
What's important was that me and kulit were able to get free invites for Magic 89.9's Voices 2 finals last night. (thanks to carrot's bro!) And that we were able to support her brother at the same time. (her brother's group was a finalist...)
What's more important was that we got to catch the AKAFellas perform a jawdropping number (as miles put it). The guys are just so AMAZING! As in amazingly oozing with talent! I love DJ Mike and Karl. No, wait. I love them all. Ang galing talaga!
To say that I enjoyed last night is an understatement. Not just because they were doing pop songs (yes, m a pop & r&b person), but because all the finalists were deserving! It made me realize that we have such talented people here.
Anyway, congrats again to your bro carrots for getting the 3rd prize. *clap clap* and thanks! Sobrang enjoy!
sabi nga ni Igan d' Bayan, overkill na daw. ilang versions daw ba ng Overjoyed ang kelangan natin marinig???
wala. naaasar pa rin ako.
d ko malaman bakit kailangang maraming versions ang isang kanta. o siya sige, gusto lang ipakita ng singer/band na kaya nilang baguhin yung rendition nung song, pero naman, sana huwag na i-record. sayang naman yung album kung puro gasgas na kanta ang nandon.
